The only thing you can count on is that you can't count on anything.

Have you ever wondered what it would be like to live in a world without any rules? For example, imagine if traffic rules shifted arbitrarily. One minute red means stop and a few minutes later it means go. Later on red means that the area is under attack by aliens.

Or let's explore an even stranger scenario. Imagine that physics shifts without notice. One minute gravity is holding you down, the next you're floating in the air. On Monday your lungs breathe air to survive and on Tuesday you suddenly have gills and need to go under water. The following Monday breathing anything is optional.

This is what loving a sociopath is like. The rules change at a moments notice. One minute you're beautiful, the next you need a plastic surgeon. On Monday hugs are welcome, on Tuesday touching is off limits. July is the month that you're brilliant, in August you're seen as a moron. In the morning you're a great help, while in the afternoon you don't do anything useful. You're welcome one minute, unwelcome the next. His best friend at work, a mere acquaintance at home.

Life on this precipice leaves you a bit, well, edgy, and for good reason. You never know when you'll be the best thing that ever happened to him, or just a momentary amusement. Compliments are really backhanded criticism (or was it?). Which way is up? Which way is down... give yourself the greatest gift of all and find your way out as soon as you can!

hugs and love, Laura